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Many mornings I sit down to write and my heart is so boggled with feelings to express I can hardly seek the words I most want to share. In these moments I am critically aware of how written words are not the most helpful or deepest or highest or loving way to express – yet they have made such an impact on my journey, I can only hope my words put together in thoughts and ideas, will make a positive impact on another’s….and somehow always convey my sense of loving.

The older and wiser I grow, my preferred manner of communication is silence – with another. Perhaps a hug goodbye, like the one I cherish from yesterday, as this  stubborn and headstrong 80 something year old woman bid me good bye from her home after a visit of tea and cake, and she snuggled up so close in my arms I felt like a mama bear. She found the perfect spot to nestle her head below my chin, and placed her entire long lived frail being around me. Feeling privileged doesn’t even come close to my gratitude for that moment. 

One of my daily prayers is that others learn to be where they are. As humans we seem to run on automatic in a rush of hurry, or lets get away, or do not stop here, or hurry up and get to work and do not feel it or fill your day with busy-ness so there is no time to feel, to express or to simply be. My heart aches when I observe this. 

I know two women right now who are grieving the deaths of their spouse. One is allowing the waves of grief to pour through her. She welcomes it, allows it and lets herself be in it – and then it passes. We have discussed how grief comes in waves, how it will surprise her in the most unexpected places, how like any wave, it comes in, and goes out; waves never stay, they dissipate. These will too. So, she rides them, she says; and then gets on with her day. The other woman is keeping busy. This is her remedy. Perhaps it will work for her, I do not know what she needs – but when we keep busy this usually also means we do not talk about, we do not sit and be with our feelings, we fill each moment with something else. This also means the discomfort we are running from will one day catch up with us and it will grow inside of us, blocking us from joy. In being with our grief, we allow and honor the experience – and hopefully have friends or other we can wrap ourselves up in, who will hold our hands, sit with us in silence, make us tea, hand us tissues and laugh with us in the midst of this new way of being. 

I truly hope you find time today to be with yourself. It does not matter where you are in your life; if you cannot be with yourself, (alone, in silence, with your own self) you cannot be there for others either. For it is in that space of quiet and vulnerability we find our connection to our Inner Being, our True Identity, our God self….and we get filled up, renewed and prepared for the world, ready for another day on planet earth.

shared with love, RevDeb 

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As is often stated, these days are challenging times. And in truth, there are and always have been challenging times in life – somewhere. I acknowledge that when your life and or our world or politics or the weather or a terrible unexpected painful day has taken place in your individual life – that hearing spiritual truths, turning to prayer or living by what is easier to do on a day when life is smooth feels like an almost irrational and impossible calling; I promise you, it is not.

Metaphysics 101 is the teaching that we are creative beings. We are born of the Creator, of God, of the energy which creates worlds!  At the ALM we acknowledge we are always creating, through our contemplation, thoughts and where we CHOOSE to place our energy. We are, as is all, pure energy – and wherever we place our energy, we add to the increase of said item – whether it be a person, experience, place or idea.  

What this means to those who live by this spiritual Truth is we practice at becoming very aware of whatever we are dancing with, merging with, speaking about, reading, looking at, desiring, writing, being with; we become deliberate creators of our experiences, recognizing we are the creative Presence, more powerful than we can possibly imagine. We know this through our FAITH in God – or the Creator, or Great Isness; the label/name is not as important, as the Truth Itself. 

In our simple daily lives, this is interpreted as; whatever you post on FB, you are adding to the existence of. In each of your conversations, you are giving a platform for whatever the topic is. I know, this one is tough, i get it.  BUT, our universe is based on yes, we are walking radio antennas, giving out and bringing to. Every time you post being against anything, or walking against anything, or marching against a cause; my friend, you give it more life. Going against is not positive or helpful; going FOR something you WANT is.  You are always going FOR – so go FOR what you want. 

In Romans 12:21. ‘Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.’  Without a faith practiced on spiritual laws, one is not able to go to the good, even though it is always present. When one does not believe in a higher power, a non physical Presence; one believes a human can hold all the power and by believing this, gives it to them. We give it to them by allowing them to intimidate,we give it to them by thinking they hold all the cards; when only God does.

It is mandatory that for those who are able, to now, continue to know that a Power Greater than the ego exists and it exists for good. It is imperative, that we continue to rise & express that love overcomes all fear. We can do this, we can be this, we can do better.

What sparked me to write this is; ‘me too’. I ask you, what good does it do for thousands upon perhaps millions of women to write ‘me too’? Of course there will be millions  of woman; this behavior ranges from inappropriate winks  to sex addicts and rapists. It exploits the ignorance, the lack of values, integrity, self respect and faith that can be present; when we forget, there is a Higher Power. 

Let’s talk about every single person standing for fairness, tolerance, kindness, rightness and integrity. Let’s each do OUR OWN WORK – to exemplify goodness. …….and in exemplifying goodness, respect and an acknowledgement of the kinship of humanity, we stand upon something stronger, deeper and eternally more satisfying  and  substantial than our human ego.  Our human ego is meek – and the proof of this is the reason it needs to be so loud to be seen. (EGO = edging God out) Stop giving it a platform, please. Like the whining three year old; tell it no, and stop engaging. Or simply ignore it. But whatever you do, the ego always wants MORE attention – and you fall right into its nest when you engage with its expression through fear, talk or other. Stand tall, state what you have to say and walk away; having faith in, right is right.

We can be better.

Rev. Deborah Evans Hogan

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~ dedicated to the life of Alan LaPointe

Whew – quite a month. 9/8/17-10/8/17 is one for my own personal books.  Alert: This is a very intimate writing; and those who do write, create art, allow  music to move through them or other, we know, this expression is many times our only way, our innate vehicle of exposing and moving our emotions. One may say sharing the discomfort, but I do not see it as a deliberate intention of sharing pain; but a joint venture in witnessing.

i consider when Jesus was riding into Jerusalem for the last supper, knowing his contractual fate, being witnessed. 

i consider Jesus at the crucifixion, being judged, adored and witnessed.

i consider when Jesus was seen by Saul/Paul on the road to Damascucs – being witnessed from the tomb. 

All these witnessing’s involved being RAISED up. Saul became Paul in his Holy Instant journey from one who hated and was willing to kill against Jesus to a believer, a devotee; having seen  and witnessed such radiant Light of the Christ.

There are moments where the simple awareness that this story is each of our journeys makes PERFECT amazing sense to me. Comforting, perfect, elegant sense. We travel through our humanness, from our fears, our rigidness; to being broken open by the Light, fractured through Love; as we are in the witnessing of ones body dying, making the transition home.

I see how each one of us, in our raw humanness, from those living a monastic intentional or not life to those in so much emotional pain they choose toting guns in the streets and seeing that shooting & killing is the only answer they can feel in that moment; how each of us are ‘attempting’ to ‘deal’ with our perceptions of life.

The way I ‘deal” is through my faith. Some days I have to dig deeper than usual, but I gratefully admit, my faith always gets me there, that space of whatever it is I am seeking relief from.

It may not seem fair, on one hand, to knowingly verbally express, what some may see as whining, to the public view. As a minister & counselor, I certainly do encourage others to not hold it in, do not let it pile up inside, let’s support you to express. Okay, i am taking my turn, my turn to be witnessed.

First off, I am shutting myself off from the outside world, the best I am able today. ( A friend arrives this afternoon for the night…but I trust I have enough time, to find that space...) In all vulnerability, I am not good at this, this shutting down just for my own benefit. I will always answer a call. First message on my phone this day was of another acquaintance making their transition. I should not have looked. He was a very good man, beloved my family, church & friends, lived a full life, a blessing to everyone he met, and now with his beloved wife who we all have no doubt was waiting for him. But, for me, i should not have looked. For me, it was one more in a month of so many souls going home, my heart is fractured open, now into pieces. So, I shut my phone off, to try to encourage some sense of solitude and interior traveling. A way to set boundaries and see my way back to myself. Thankfully it is a rainy morning here in our neck of the woods. Perfect for sitting on our back porch, windows open and allowing the rain, the wet trees and the birds to serenade me. ….while i write. This space brings me immense comfort. I am certainly in need of some, so this is good.

Clergy interact with death & dying. It is part of the package. It is a part I have always felt deeply privileged to be invited to.  Families allowing an outsider to guide them, support them, and celebrate with them. It is when our hearts are most vulnerable, when our rawness allows for more opening, when the veil is so thin, the radiance of Holy Spirit so bright – and love, so palpable. After 30 years of being welcomed to witnessing this journey with families, friends & beloveds; I remain in awe of the indwelling gratitude I carry.

The most excruciating facet of being with death & dying is each person remains with you. They become a part of me, a speck of my beingness. A piece of their story, the gratitude in their spouses eyes, the pain on their children’s faces, the joy their friends expressed at the feast – and the stories shared at a wake. And last night, when i left a friends home, and the final view i was privileged to witness; was his wife, his daughter, her fiancee, his son, his wife; all sitting around him, pouring love & prayer on him, as he lay in his hospice bed, in the twilight silence of their home, their life and his journey.

So, my month began on the anniversary of my father’s death twenty one years ago, 9/8, with three people I know being murdered. The feelings I had around this knowledge is absolutely nothing compared to what their family is dealing with. Nothing. But and yet, at one time in my life; I knew them, loved them and cared for them. They were a speck of my journey. They were a part of my tapestry. And I felt it. I had a tribe of folks who knew I knew them, who needed to express, to talk, to ask and futally attempt to see sense in the senseless.

The month evolved from there, with one of my husbands best friends in hospice. Then, old friends, acquaintances, dying. Many times two a day. Yes, multiple. Expected and not. A dear friends husband making his way home, and they welcomed me to be supportive of them with hugs, tears, presence and prayers.  Then there were the clients in my practice who came for grief support. Many. It has been an every single day occurrence; for one month. (In these moments, I FULLY understand why priests in  movies (yes, and life) had a housekeeper & kept a perfectly aged bottle in the desk.)

But, what IS IT exactly that is fracturing us? I believe in life eternal. What is it that is overflowing and breaking open the mold I was immediately before I heard yet another announcement? The love. It is the LOVE we witness. Only love can create such craters of emptiness within our hearts. And yes, only love can fill them.

Can you contemplate that the tears one sheds when by a hospice bed are not about the dying; but are our hearts overflowing with the LOVE we are aware of?

In addition there is the collective grief we are each feeling in our world, in this time of horrific and unfathomable natural events and outward fear expressed in each and made commercially newsworthy through the lack of integrity – in some.

I am not whining, I think I am just saying, it has been a doozie! Too many coincidences of dates, happenings, to list here.  My own personal belief system being challenged, my own faith starring me in the face saying; okay, can you be HERE now? (I hear the ole black church ladies from my tapestry looking at me in their Sunday hats, wagging fingers at me; You can do this, Deborah, YOU can do this, stomp the devil down girl, dance and get on, you can do this! Come on, they say……. follow us.)

No, today i cannot my loves. Today i will wallow. Today I will light candles in my home, play my CD from my friend ‘Shelia from Ireland’…….in her enchanting brouge and song, pulling the tears up from my gut — so i CAN get on with it. And I will get on with it, I always do; as my husband logically reminds me.

I will think about my faith. I think about how it is my belief that only our bodies die and our souls thrive and live on. For me, this is a fact. Yet, in that moment that a loved one or a loved one of a loved one transitions home to God, being an empath & sensitive – i feel all their feelings. I am aware of their pain, anguish & grief. I can be in the room or have the photo and announcement cross my Facebook page; but the feelings and awareness of love are the same for me. At this same time, i am hearing their loved ones speak to me, or show themselves to me….and I know, they are here. That critical awareness that Love is all we have, all we are and all we ever will be. The loss of our bodies is immense – but the raw love is more immense. The love is ALWAYS greater. It is my faith and gut wrenching hope that I stand in the rightness of this path of life, seeing it as eternal & knowing we remain with each other vibration-ally and WILL see one  another again, getting the full story this time – raised in our wakefulness to the heavens. I will spend the day stomping, as my ole’ friends call it, catching my self at moments of discord, looking to Jesus to harmonize my heart and set my mind back on track. And i will cry, buckets and buckets; for our friends children, for my friend who lost her best friend of 40  years  – together since she was 16!!! They met in high school. What do you do with that kind of love? I will cry and rejoice for lives lived into 80’s and 90’s! I will cry and dance for love. What to do? You remain in awe of the journey, the joys, the differences, the coming together and the pulling apart that makes it whole, that make US whole.

I know it to be so, that in the witnessing, we heal. In witnessing and being witnessed we get put back together again, like a sacred Humpty Dumpty. Being witnessed in love is the most profound and life altering experience; it turns Saul’s to Paul’s and fear to strength.

I will share with you, I do feel better. Now. Writing, reading & rereading; this has helped. Now, onto the laundry, onto figuring out how does one go to this many funerals, onto cards, letters, notes of encouragement & hope.  The stuckness of any lack has moved through me. Put back together again through sharing. My own sacred Humpty Dumpty moment. An aged old concept, sharing, witnessing.

The good stuff remains; always. 

with my love, RevDeb

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Your Highest expression of beingness is calling you, are you responding?

When another being touches a wound in you and anger, resentment or  hurt shows itself; can you hear Love calling you? Are you able to see that you feel so awful in that moment because you are going against, or not listening to YOUR TRUE IDENTITY

Your GodSelf is saying, be centered and focused on me. You can still walk away, that is okay, and realize we each have a journey to walk, experiences to have, ground to cover; forgive due to OUR humanness & ignorance – and realize that attacking back is only lowering your own frequency to pain; and their pain is NOT your story. …but you make it your story when you choose to engage. You are being offered an opportunity to listen, raise the frequency, and be still and know your True Identity.

When you read, watch or see something that causes you emotional discomfort; can you hear God calling you?  “This is okay – this is life – stay focused on Me – choose what you listen to – choose what you read – choose what you watch – I gave you choice.”  This, that you are engaging with does not feel good to you because THIS is NOT part of your True Identity.  

Our True Identity is calling each of us, everyday, to be more than we presently realize. Are you responding to the call? 

shared with love, Rev Deb





Anne Lamott & Where’s My Place? 

“I do not at all understand the mystery of grace – only that it meets us where we are but does not leave us where it found us.” Anne Lamott

I am in the midst of being swept up and in through Anne Lamott’s latest; Hallelujah Anyway.  (  ) I highly recommend it. I sent the text of this recommendation to a  friend yesterday, even though I was only on the 12th page, I knew, her ‘open heart which runs on overtime each second to life’s love and failures’ – would adore it, relate with it and succumb to the mystically raw Lamott prose. It is physically such a small book – a total misconception is revealed once you read one line, knowing this book will fill you up with thoughts, contemplation’s and emotions you never knew you had; yet. For me, this read is not saturated with her usual humor, but with depth and rawness; I think she turned inside out for this one. Or perhaps I am being turned inside out by it and I am only assuming she had to do the same to give birth to it. My bad. 

I am able to only read a few pages at a time. My heart starts aching and my belly begins to talk. Small distractions. If I make it through those without stopping, then my ah-ha moment arises and I see what is mine to experience. Thank God I stayed.

The book is about Mercy – but where I landed is this: are we all simply seeking ‘our place’? Where is my place? Is this what we each want to find? Is this what the whole search; love, loneliness, depression, joy, sex, work, addiction, laughter till we wet our pants, anger, talking, meditating, caring about – for – and with….is this all about – finding my place?

My place, no matter where i am, i am always the same in it. I may be holding a dying friends hand, or i may be laughing uproariously with a client about our insane humanness. If i am having tea by myself or sitting with a group; i am still in my place – and that is where my security lies. My place fuels me, offers me roots, feeds me. I cannot lie, i get knocked off my place when another does not recognize it – i can pretty much stay there no matter what is happening in the outside world at the moment, but if i am not seen by a loved one; splat. (right now, only two folks have this affect on me, it’s a small crowd) – I loose my place……. and for a moment, or a few low flying thoughts get hold of my gerbil wheel, or at most a monkey mind driven rant out loud to my husband is humanly expressed; i loose my grip, get tripped up, loose my balance. I mean, if you cannot see MY place, (and maybe you cannot because you cannot see your own…), then how can you truly love me? I realized as I contemplated this notion of my place deeper and deeper; few know theirs. 

Your place is how you ‘be’ in life – and when you find it, you know. It is home. It is right. Your place is really what you care about. For me, I care about how a humans inner life is going for them. Because of this, I care nothing for what an activist likes, or what the news says or what reporters report. I care about you realizing how incredibly amazing you are, through the eyes of the Creator, the Birther of all life, and that you realize this. That’s it. 

This puts me in a precarious position with daily conversation, practical things like budgets, world happenings, and if you are my relative who only cares about the stock market. I mean, I want to know how your heart is seeking joy, and you only want to talk politics or recession or banks. BUT, what i do respect is; that is their place. And one being fully in their place tops you and I being in the same place. (Previous line worth rereading.) When you know your place, the idea of someone having to agree or come over to your way of thinking no longer exists – we know, each being has their place. I have deep reverence for this. Whatever your place is; do it well.

This brings me to mercy; the point of Lamott’s latest book. My stream of mercy stems through my faith that we are each made of the Creator and as we seek a more loving and unconditional perception of others; mercy flows and forgiveness or need disperses. Mercy, for me, is the door handle to Grace. 

But, to find out what this incredibly prolific and heart wrenching writer says about mercy, you will have get the book. In repeating myself; I highly recommend it.

with love, RevDeb

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Healer, Master Energy Practitioner, Teacher, & Member of the Clergy

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death & dying, one of my favorite subjects to share about. i find there is no more intimate space & time in our humanness than to be with another, when they are leaving their body and going home. in the midst of when many are fearful, i  am most at home, with my heart wide open, over flowing with love and my joy for another at its height. let me tell you why.

  • combining all my experiences i have had in this realm and others concerning dying, i know their is none. the body does turn to ash, but our being-ness, our souls, our isness; is eternal. 
  • i have witnessed souls leave their physical containers. for me, they appear as a grey mass of energy.
  • i have witnessed the final breath of many, taken AFTER the soul exits the body, as it is the final mechanical bodily response. 
  • i have sat with bodies post ‘death’, and when you do this, you KNOW the person who you knew is no longer present, even though their body is.
  • i know from my own experience, there is an ‘other side’, an ‘other realm’, a ‘heaven’.
  • i have had and continue to have conversations, sightings and messages from those who have ‘died’. for me, this can be part of my everyday – their is no veil between realities.

one of my most joyful sharing moments is to help to educate others, so the fear stigma of a loved one dying is removed from their belief system as well as what i call – ‘dying etiquette’.

on the top of my dying etiquette list is, when you are visiting a loved one who is leaving their body, making their transition, PLEASE know, they can hear every word you say in their presence.

  • do not speak as if they are not in the room.
  • do not use harsh language or tell negative stories.
  • do not ignore them.
  • do not speak loudly.
  • do not argue.
  • do not  whisper secretly in the corner of their room.
  • be the most respectful you have ever been in your entire life.

i believe  being with a loved one at the time of their transition is a sacred and holy event. if you are fortunate enough to be part of ones inner circle, know this is for THEM. your relationship has eternally connected you together and you are here to support them in the purest love possible.  

no fear in the room, the house or other. do not bring your fear. our souls know no fear. how many times have you heard; ‘she died the one hour i left to go home to shower! i had been their every night & day for a week, and i MISSED it!’ No, you did not miss it, it was however, the only time the soul had that was a present and most loving state in the room so it could exit the body. 

the dying process is the soul separating from the ego. the ego loves fear. when one is with another who is leaving their body, and the guest is afraid for them, or does not want them to die, or thinks this experience is a bad thing, or going on and on in a morbid way about how much they will miss them; these emotions and feelings make it easier for the ego to stay and most difficult for the soul to detach.

dying, leaving ones body, is a very similar experience for the soul as being born is. as the human gestation period is nine months, there also can be a gestation period for one to make their transition to the other realm. very often we will see this in the elderly, or one with a lengthy illness, or one under hospice care. a pregnant woman will know when their baby’s soul is present, they FEEL it…then one day, they do not feel anything at all. when one does not feel a connection to their child, the soul is traveling, going home, then it drops back in the human form developing…..’getting use to things’. the same is true when we ‘die’. our souls leave for while, we may sleep for many hours, or be in a non communicative state – our soul, that which we are, is traveling home, then, it will come back and literally drop in. have you ever sat with a ‘dying’ beloved and witnessed the jerking awakening? the soul literally drops back in. the slow long deaths which those who are left behind here on earth may call painful and terrible to see; are actually very  nice for the soul. it gives our true essence time to get use to the transition from being in human form. 

that being said, when there is a sudden death, or self inflicted death, or arduous dying process or we have lived a very angry and unloving (unable to give or receive)  life; we first spend time in what i call a hospital for the soul, before making our complete transition home. at this time, we are surrounded by our non-physical beloveds, who support our full healing process to remembering our innate divinity.

you will also see, if you are able to witness, one transitions home as they lived here on earth: 

  • i have witnessed the man who only wanted to help others, who lived a life out of joy of loving life, not out of fear, who appeared in perfect health, have a surprise aneurysm on his front porch one morning. one moment here, one moment home.
  • i have witnessed many fearful people have difficulty leaving their bodies. understandable, with no comprehension of what is next, the letting go and letting God concept is foreign to them.
  • i have witnessed a very fearful elderly person take years of different illnesses, in and out of hospitals. we finally had the chance to talk about his fears, he left shortly afterwards.
  • i have witnessed people who lived lives of abuse of others, die in what many would call a tragic death.
  • i have witnessed very controlling people have challenging processes, not able to let go.

at a point, the soul wants to leave the body.  but this is never out of fear – it is always out of love. 

it is very important to have open talks with your spouses or loved ones concerning your wishes.

it is best to not have too many people around. if dying at home, a home filled with love and ordinary day to day action, but not too many people in the room at one time. 

create an atmosphere of peace. perhaps music they loved. no tv, like too many people in the room,  it is distracting and confusing. remember, during a dying process a person is hypersensitive. you will find touching them may be uncomfortable for them. (very often the soul is trying to leave and one holds a hand and it pulls the soul back in) do not feel like someone has to be with them every moment. it is okay. they have hard work to do, dying takes a lot of energy. 

their animals will want to be with them.

i was with a beloved at her dying process. her son sat on one side of her bed, i the other. i asked her why she still had her glasses still on, “Deborah, i don’t want to miss anything.” 

it is my most loving intention this writing will reach those who can feel supported by these words. 

i love you, RevDeb

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Sometimes i awake in the midst of the night thinking……how can there be anything more to say? 

I do not know about you, but my FB page is a stream of spiritual messages from here, there & everywhere. Lovely. Encouraging. Uplifting. Compassionate. Helpful. Positive. I have been consciously & intentionally journeying this path of  seeking for near 40  years – looking under every rock, reading hundreds of books, seeking churches and communities to fill me up. I have been a student, a teacher, a guide & the one guided. So many rolls and experiences have been touched. Now, i sit back and observe – we are and they all are; saying the same thing. We are beginning to be repetitive monkeys. 

We know we must be loving. We know kindness rules. We know tolerance is necessary for a peaceful world. We know our thoughts become things. We know emotions are at the root of all illness. We know we can turn our heart from looking at what we do not want to what we want. At this point, there are probably MORE gurus & spiritual teachers than there are students. Is there anything new to be spoken, written, explored?

Yes, you.

Since each one of us are individual souls with our own unique energies birthed through our own experiences, stories & journey;  it is our own unique offering which is left – and there you have it; more teachers & gurus than students. The spark of this is; be your own. Be your own teacher. You are your own teacher. Bring yourself back to your self. 

The one thing all teachers have in common is their individuality – the way they present, their alignment. It is expressed in their stance, their voice, the words they choose. We may all be repeating monkeys, BUT, an excellent spiritual guide, i believe, will always bring you back to yourself.  YOU; are your own very best teacher.

Perhaps this is where we are in our collective journey – each one back to themselves; turning inside out, revealing and reveling in their own word, actions and ideas. …and simply offering it up to the world. Each soul the teacher, each soul the student, each soul the guru, each soul the guide. Can you sit with this and feel it?  It is immensely simple.

Everyone we encounter, no matter their label in our play called this incarnation, is in our lives to support us to turn into our selves – and see. Be a voyeur of your mind, your own thoughts, your own instincts, your own choices, your own reasons, your own replenishment, your own beingness. 

In a Sunday service once, some 15 or so years ago when i was in active church ministry i stated that i thought our goal was to get naked. I went onto explain; after ah-has, oh’s, laughter and quizzical expressions – i believe our goal, or our spiritual journey  could be all about being so okay with ourselves, that we walk around emotionally naked, exposed – with no guilt, shame or lies to hide us. That our goal, just may be, might be, to grow into such loving and awake beings; that we turn ourselves inside out for everyone to see. OR the turning inside out is an EFFECT of …no fear, no lack; so full up with love, forgiveness and joy – it is all that is left to be. 

And then, what more would there be to say?

with much love, RevDeb

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– Healer, Master Energy Practitioner, Teacher & Member of the Clergy

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The other day I read a quote ; ‘we must pay more attention to our mental health’. I know the circumstances from which this sentence came, the experience the person had recently had which created this thought in his mind. Yes, we must. BUT…………………………..

When we give ourselves a strong spiritual understanding, touchstone, foundation – our chances of being healthy in every aspect of our lives is increased a thousandth fold.

Stating we have mental health, physical health, emotional health; separate. I believe beyond a minuscule speck of doubt; our foundation has to be our spiritual health. Without an embodied spiritual faith and understanding in the Laws of the Universe – we rock and roll through life, depending/looking to/on separateness rather than our wholeness. When we see and know ourselves to be created from the Creator, The Divine Architect, made in Its perfection, we see a whole; not a body, a mind, emotions….parts and pieces.

One of Deepak Chopra’s earliest books was on spiritual answers for any problem, then Wayne Dyer wrote  There is a Spiritual Solution to every problem.

What does this look like? It looks like this: Children are born into families who are healthy, loving and stable – because the parents have done their work, as i call it. They have stepped up to faith in the non-physical, taken 100 % responsibility for their choices, there are no more lies, blame, guilt, shame, (knowing they make a very unstable foundation!) – have forgiven all that needs forgiving, have stepped from victim to empowered, have healthy boundaries and know love is all that matters. The parents know kindness, they know diversity is wholeness, they embody tolerance, and a collective awareness of the Universal Whole. They are healthy in all aspects of their lives; and when a life experience comes along – they seek within for guidance.

When we know this, we know love. Not a conditional love based on if you are doing what i want, but a love which allows for expression, growth and joy. A love which trusts God, the Creator, whatever your name is for the Isness of that which we are.

When we are taught /shown to seek internally, to become aware of our eternal connection to the Creator – we are given a foundation of our wholeness. When we have been brought up to believe we have separateness within us, we seek externally and many times, never find an answer; hence, human pain expressed as inhuman actions to others. Wholeness is an awareness of our humanity, our collective.

We are witnessing much pain in the world now, the collective pain, ancestral and worldly is being exposed, due to the collective of Love which has risen.  In seeking an understanding, we must honor spiritual truths, and go within. We must, each day, consistently reconnect our personal awareness of our Divine Isness and feed our humanness of this truth – in order to not be swept up in the rock and roll of separate sighted humanness. We  remind ourselves of our wholeness, we recognize in our human skin we are separate bodies journeying for individual greater purpose – and in our Isness we are specks of a Divine, non physical whole.

head shot looking down Rev. Deborah Evans Hogan

Healer, Master Energy Practitioner, Teacher & Member of the Clergy





Creating. We are each always doing this. Through our thinking, expressing, looking at, engaging with, dreaming about, talking about, aligning with, desiring, praying…….each moment; creating. Our thoughts, when dwelled upon and given life, become our beliefs….and our beliefs attain an energetic level within our cellular beingness; creating, being given life, manifesting.

Our responsibility in this Divine Transaction  is: are you creating from fear or love? Think about it.

Desiring anything from fear holds no weight. It will dissolve of its own lack of substance. Such a desire will blow over in too heavy a wind, it will melt in too much passion and dissolve when met with greater strength. 

Any desire can be birthed from either nest; love or fear. 

Take for example a relationship – do you want a relationship out of love? Out of sharing, creating together, supporting one another, seeing each others dreams come into reality? Or do you want a relationship from lack? Do you want someone else to make you happy – or do you want to share the joy you already know you are? Do you desire a relationship because you feel like you are not enough? As is the old story – do you want another to ‘complete you’? 

Let me tell you a secret – you are already complete. Seek another whole, not another half.

Too many marry because  the thought is, they need me. Where does that direct the relationship? One in that thinking will always see their ‘partner’ as less than, not fulfilled, needy. Think about it.

As humans we may want something in our lives – but do we want it because we realize we are already it and we wish to see it manifested through our alignment???? OR do we want it because we feel it has to be given to us & we are empty without it?  

Millions of us want peace – but do we want peace out of fear of war OR do we want peace from a knowing within us that PEACE is our natural state and we BELIEVE in it as a possibility? Do we believe in PEACE as a state of being OR do we believe more in  the fear of what insanity (misalignment) can do to mankind? 

Are you saying ‘war is this and that? OR are you aligning with, PEACE is a possibility, I believe in the concept that man can live in putting kindness to humanity first in their lives….I am excited to see our work in peace, IN LEADERS sharing, in men & women truly leading from fairness to all. I am excited to see the ego dissolved; and the heart reigning.’

Are you making choices out of attachment? Out of lack? Out of dissatisfaction? OR from JOY? 

In supporting a client to seek new employment, our conversation always goes back to: what do you WANT to do, what lights your fire, what moves you? And the left brain answer is always; i was trained to do this. The left brain cannot see beyond the label on the box. The left brain does not know there is CHOICE, creation, another way to SEE. 

Left/Right Brain Conversation

R) Are you cold?

L) The thermostat says 53.

R) I asked if you are cold.

L) The thermostat says 53, it is cold.

R) I asked if you are FEELING cold…..

L). The thermostat says 53………….

and on & on we go……….

Even in our daily life, are you making choices out of fear or love? Too many make healthy choices from fear, other than from a positive attitude. Too many are at a subliminal war within them selves, not recognizing their inner higher power, not yet aligned with  the strength from which we are made of and from. 

When we stop recognizing fears or negaitivty and begin to see our hearts, our souls, our Highest & most magnificent Light, the Light of Infinite Possibilities; “YES, you can” will take place. Authenticity will take place.  Creating from internal awareness & possibility takes place! 

Shared with Love.

head shot looking downDeborah Evans Hogan

Healer, Master Energy Practitioner, Teacher, Member of the Clergy.





Happy Silence.

Abraham-Hicks tells us, we are made of that which creates worlds. Others may say we are created of stardust, Light or simply; of the vibration of LOVE. Our inner being is what we truly are – our essence, our Self, our Higher, better, more loving Self. I say, our Beingness is of the Highest most loving caliber possible, created with the frequency of Love, holding the vibrations of tolerance, kindness, abundance, joy, freedom, creativity,  and all infinite good and blessed ‘things’.

Whenever we are feeling off, or unhappy, or whaling like a babe for no apparent reason, depressed, sad, or other emptiness; we are engaged with a belief which goes against our True Nature, our Beingness. Our heart center feels deprived, because our present thinking has lowered our frequency, taken our intention away from the Truth of Love.

Sitting each day, meditating, is the path to freedom. This is the time we make our awareness be engaged with our Beingness, the fullness of Presence. I do believe, it is the most helpful, beneficial and necessary tool we have – and one needs nothing outside themselves to do it. You need buy nothing, read nothing, listen to nothing – in order to hear your own breath and loudness of silence.

Blessed meditating. Go listen to your breath. It will change your life – for the good.

with love, Deborah

head shot looking down  Deborah Evans Hogan


Healer, Master Energy Practitioner, Teacher & Member of the Clergy