Willingness is a superpower.

What is it that so many are reaching for? What does it look like? Feel like? How does it work? And the on going quest – how does one get there?

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Sometimes I imagine creating a book of step by step moments to awakening. It is often said, we each have what we need already inside of us, if we teach this, and I do –  how do we get it out, how do you get it out? If it is inside of me already, where the heck is it? Why am I so unhappy? Why do things not work out for me? Why am I so miserable? 

I have been offering assistance; as a healer, counselor, energy practitioner, minister – to others for almost thirty years – and still, I meet up with people who believe they cannot get there, the illusive there – that place of happiness.  It is my observance, that the people who are ‘stuck’ all have two commonalities and in that, all are given the same guidance – every man, woman, child, rich, poor, educated, not educated – the universal laws have no boundaries, no favorites and no preferences.

  1. You have to be willing; to change, to be happy, to feel better, to look in a different direction. 

Willingness is a letting go of what is, for the possibility of what can be. It is the sheer openness to un-cling from what was or is, in order to allow what can be to even be considered. The poor mans hands are clenched. Open to receive.

The enemies of this idea of willingness are intellect/ego and the word ‘hard’. The intellect may include what you have always done, what you were taught, what you studied, what you see before you, what others tell you, what your mind believes to be so, right, factual and correct. The word hard is heard many times in my line of work. From everyone; ‘but Deborah, it is so hard.’ (As if that is reason enough to not do my suggestions. Do you want to feel better or not?) And then, because an idea is instantly labeled difficult by your ego mind, you recede from it on all levels and use the term that something is too hard as an excuse to not do the work, to not look to another direction, to not let go.

We only hold on because we do not believe in ‘other’.  Other answers, other happiness, other ways to see, others ways to be. People hold onto relationships with anything because they believe that it is the only relationship they can have with whatever it is and if they let go  – then what?  People hold on because they do not trust in God. People hold on because they do not trust the universe to provide other. People hold on because they think they have to know exactly how to be in charge, how to make something work, how to force something to happen. People hold on because they fear, due to lack of faith, and and the unknown is too challenging for the human need to control. (“Yes, I want to feel better, but I want to feel better MY WAY. If I hold on enough, things will go back to the way it was.” ) 

      2. You have to WANT to be happy.

This means, you have to value happiness and feeling good over/MORE THAN getting your own way, or having that specific relationship back, or having that thing your want. It means simply experiencing joy. This means you are willing to consider there is joy in the universe outside the strict parameters you are holding/clinging to.


 There are SO many tools one can use in the comfort of their own life to find their way out of the paper bag if they are willing. 

  • a journal of things you like – each day, make note. No boundaries; the sky, it stopped raining, a cloud, food, an attractive person gets your attention, a funny scene, a smile, a nod from a stranger, the shape of a car, a flower, the sunshine, trees. ANYTHING. 
  • watching or listening to anything positive on computers or podcasts, reading or conversations.  Hundreds of spiritual teachers have grand formats in sharing their offerings. Find one. (Abraham-Hicks. Mooji.)
  • sit and listen to beautiful music. breathe. for a few minutes each day. 
  • look for things to appreciate
  • there are SO many books to choose from, just make up your mind to read one, to look in a different direction.

The fact is, unless one is willing, nothing is going to change. Life is done through us according to our faith. What ever you pay attention to grows, you get more of it – what are you paying attention to?

with great love,




The Art of Distraction

Friends: This is copied from my ministerial facebook page. I have received so much input regarding this post, an energy update if you will, I thought to share it here, as a blog, along with beautifully pertinent added follow up from a beloved, as well as additional meanderings.

ADDICTION: Anything we use to distract us from ourselves. The energies of expansion through the Creators Unconditional Love are causing/forcing/bringing many – to meet themselves where their addiction is. Humans can use anything as an addiction; from drugs to shopping, to too much work, to gossip to religion, to whining & complaining to never making a decision, to whatever you may see as an addiction, what you are emotionally attached to. IT is anything we emotionally use as a crutch to NOT be in whole alignment with our Highest Selves. The Distraction. The ‘I look over here’…’not inside’. ‘I worry about them to avoid meeting myself’. We are being surrounded in a cosmic pressure cooker of Divine Light & Love in order to rid our minds and beliefs of anything that cannot be EMBODIED in/with/as our Creators Essence.

We are seeing drastic ends of the spectrum of fear & love, due to this – many are thriving from the essence of Gods Love – through forgiveness, acceptance, joy, faith, gratitude & appreciation. We now have walking Masters on earth. As well as many are meeting their most uncomfortable (dreaded) spaces. The ‘little hidden secret’ is coming alive in order to be witnessed & released in love. We cannot run from love. And, the distraction can only be released through LOVE.

Many present pretty stubborn, for their minds have never thought in terms of Oneness, Divinity, innate birthrights as a Child of God. These sister & brothers have spent years and perhaps lifetimes living from a mentality of fear and having to do life all by themselves. There is a very real to them feeling, of not knowing where else to turn, or what to do.

Let us send them love – not force our beliefs on them, but love them, from the soul to soul level. Simply be there. Suggestions may bounce off like a brick wall – so simply, faithfully & deeply love them. See them spinning in the cosmic facets of the Mind of God and say: May they know Your wisdom God, your Love & Peace. May they find you as themselves, deep within their energy body, may they feel & experience Your Holy Presence, in order to fulfill their heart centered joys. Amen & Amen.

(Follow up from a Beloved/ shared with permission, & creatively changed for privacy & understanding)

“Still working on my work addiction. Even at work, I made changes. I used to get very mad when I could saw others not doing their work. Now, I am practicing not getting mad and not acting out of anger. I did say no to some overtime this month. Still I see how I work too much. When I looked at myself as a work addict, there was no difference between me and my clients. In doing some yard work, I found another meditation besides cleaning! “

I received this from a beloved/student. So, so happy for her! This woman works in a halfway house and is now seeing how imbalanced her life was in working overtime every week, many times over 30 days in a row….and when she was home, she cleaned, cleaned, cleaned…and never saw this as a way of ignoring her own personal responsibility to Self before this article & our last healing session – as an ‘issue’.   In working with addicts, she now see’s how one particular relationship with a guest reflects her own cycle of personal distraction & imbalance. 

As humans, we are Masters at logically thinking (and talking) …JUSTIFYING – our way away from taking responsibility for our own distraction/addiction; that which prevents us from looking inside ourselves and seeking our own balance and knowing of Spirit. 

When we take responsibility for everything being a reflection of what is within ourselves, we spiritually mature and no longer re-act emotionally, as well as know the only thing that needs to change is our own thinking; take the internal route to peace!

Shared with great love, in hope to inspire. 

Deborah – http://www.amethystlight.org

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The Longing to Belong

Yesterday the word belonging came to me, a Divine idea, dropped into my field for my own contemplation of what it means to ‘belong’.  I am unsure that this feeling can be anything but felt, that words can describe it. As with love, or the smell of a rose, and other spiritual gifts; the feeling of belonging is wordless. Yet, when one FEELS it, experiences it, it is undeniable. 

The feeling of belonging fills us, as it is love which makes us feel this. To belong is part of our innateness –  without belonging we feel the lie of separation.  And when we are in relationship (a person, a marriage, a church family, a family unit, a job, a career) –  and then not, for whatever reason our ‘you do not belong’ button is activated, hearts are broken open. 

This longing to Belong may just be what drives us to do – anything, good for us or not. The heart, mind, body experience of  “I belong here” as well as “I do not belong here”  is deep, palpable, rich in opportunity. 

So many say, I do not belong in this family. Or, you are wonderful, kind, loving – but I do not feel I belong with you. And then on the other end of the spectrum is the – in a glance, we know, we belong together. 

Anything can make us feel the expression of BELONGING; a spiritual community, a family, a street gang, a club, work. Does it come down to; oh, here there are others like me….and  I know the vibration of belonging? I am aligned with this, with them, with all of this here….I have found my tribe, my place, where my heart is home. I belong.

Does it come down to the seed of Love & loving?

We cannot force belonging. Many times it sneaks up into your heart and one day you simply, know – no doubts, a feeling of ease, grace, comfort. 

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Years ago I lived in a beautiful seaside city filled with creative vibrancy and many diverse places & spaces to belong. In conversation one day with one of the pillars of the theater community, where I came & went from, I joyfully shared; “I feel welcomed in so many places & groups here, but belong no where”.  Another words, in conversation I would not be associated with any of them, but welcomed whenever I showed up. I have never been a soul who hooked into ONE place, clique or group. My birth family once told me I was obviously “restless”.  I smiled, and let it go; rigid cannot understand fluid, contained cannot see the un-contained, the box has sides and views are blocked.  I have been very happy being me for a quite a while now……………..

Yesterday I did feel I belong. It is in my marriage, and our home and land and space we  settled on five years ago. I have loved many other spaces, taken care of and adored; yet this is the first time I felt I belonged. Now, I understand wanting to belong as well as the devastation the lack of it can conjure in ones heart, if one needs this. I always belonged – my faith roots are deep and because I knew I belonged in my love of God and all that means to me, I could float around, here & there, seeing God in all places – yet now, this, this feeling is a human belonging; with my husband, our home and our life. 

shared with love, with the hope to inspire,




Palpable Emptiness

I awoke this morning aware of missing God. Is this even possible? No. It is not. We are made of the Creator, live in, with and are part of the Creator. God is omnipotent, omnipresent, omniscient. We are Divinity in form. What is this emptiness I touched upon, this vacancy, I was aware of? It felt just like when people speak of missing a loved one who has died, moved to another state, are on vacation – for a brief moment there was a palpable emptiness, an unusual void, an uncomfortableness I had never been aware of before.

As a minister & healer I am often brought to spaces of fear or lack to experience what it is like for others – it does not last long, or at least until I ‘get’ what I am to understand from the experience – which is always the same thing; a palpable understanding through the experience of, in order to create authentic compassion & empathy within me. 

These moments change me beyond anything of intelligence or of the pure ego mind thinking possibly could. The seed of the feeling my beloveds may be trying to express to me in a counseling moment is now not just words to me, but a real, thriving thing I can, as a human, relate to, know and feel. God has created these opportunities through me since I learned of the Silent Prayer, (a tool for healing) committed to it as a key to energetic empathy medicine for the healing of others. (The previous learning experience of empathy was in early March when I jumped on the gerbil wheel of fear & down the rabbit hole regarding a physical symptom. I had NEVER, EVER in my life experienced that before. I have always, no matter how anything looked, KNEW I was healthy, safe, okay, would be fine, would heal easily from whatever the label, from whatever a doctor said, from how ever it looked or appeared. It took a few days, and not until I GOT IT, until I FELT the moment of TRUE empathy for others who come to me in fear of a medical label, did the unknown pain I was having literally leave my body. As a God sister and I were on the phone and she asked me why do you have this……..I GOT it. The heavenly lightbulb went off in my mind and BOOM! – When I GOT, EMPATHY for others…IT left my belly and in that Holy instant; I understood.) 

When these guided teaching moments take place I am left with FAR more, filled – up more, increased more – in my personal God awareness. Emptiness no longer exists.

So, this emptiness I felt this morning; what did it represent for me? WHERE WAS I NOT FEELING ‘GOOD ENOUGH’? Where was I blaming more self, going against myself, where was I not showing up in my faith? Where was I not expressing love? Was I filling that well, as ALL my students have heard me say numerous times, in sitting with God? The reason we meditate, sit with God, with OUR awareness of Spirit each morning, is to develop this very personal, palpable & positive relationship with God, so we KNOW God. Was I being true to my own covenants? In this emptiness I also became acutely aware of flashes of when we are not being aware of God: when we blame, speak unkindly, are impatient, fall off whatever wagon we want to stay on, miss an opportunity to GIVE, listen, or love. Oh, THAT is emptiness! WE create it in our own personal & palpable lack of RECOGNITION of GOD! Yesterday a woman I know (have not seen for years, never a ‘close’ friend) – posted a fundraiser for help with moving costs. I instantly got my card, my checkbook, and donated to bring it over her requested amount. This was a HUGE moment of no resistance, just utter joy in supporting one another in this life experience. My ministerial mentor taught me this; always give others an opportunity to GIVE, it is a gift.  

When we bring our relationship with Holy Spirit into our DAILY lives; not just when we sit, or just when we go to church, or just when we are in Yoga class, or JUST when we go to the ashram on a vacation – when we make a commitment to God, a covenant to KNOW God, this is every cell of our being we are talking about – not just when we feel like, or just when WE think it is needed, or just when we want to ask for help – knowing God takes up all of ourselves. 

Years ago I did mentoring of ministerial students and when a person came to me for the first time, I would say to  them; do not say yes to the ministry unless you are being literally pulled, like the hook from the old burlesque movies pulling you off stage…..do not say yes unless you are okay with being turned inside out and have a sense of walking in integrity ALL THE TIME. As we all know, there are too many people who do not walk their talk – so, if you are wanting to be a person who spreads the word of hope and love through faith with others, if you are wanting to be a teacher of God, be prepared to be put through a magnificent holy ringer – and know that when you maintain your faith & integrity you will be stronger and more  loving than you ever saw possible, and if you do not, you will fall like you cannot even imagine. So, do you wish to continue? 

The Divine Architects’ set up of this magnificent world always lets us know when we are not remembering Love. We simply do not feel good. We are NOT seeking joy. When we are not sharing, not being kind, tolerant, giving – when we are not doing our very best as children of the Divine we feel wretched. When we believe in illness more than health, in anger more than patience, in shutting ourselves off more than showing up….when we are listing to people more than God.  We have, as us, the potential for SO MUCH, and when we go against ourselves, which IS going against God; we feel it. And, when we have made a commitment before God, and God is witnessing every commitment we make, and we do not live up to it, when we act other than – discomfort is the signal; emptiness is deafening. 

I share this with great Love.