Nadia Bolz-Weber is ONE of my favorite ‘famous’ (or would she prefer infamous, a little more colorful?) pastors, clergy, ministers…outspoken, different, strong, courageous, mouthy, bold, and faithful in and to and of God beyond one iota of anything.
The above quote, for me, is what this journey of faith is all about. We can use the mud and the lotus, a very pretty analogy, which I have used often myself, or, we can get down and dirty, raw and real and say it THIS way.
Dig me out of this GOD! I made this, I created this, this way, this sorrow, this pain, this addiction, this story – and I WANT OUT!
Truly, take away all the politeness and this is where we land. And I believe, if we are honest with ourselves, we land here everyday – mostly. We may land here quietly, not a very large hole, not TOO much dirt, we can see the horizon, (we might have to squint) but still need a lift …….or perhaps we are fully buried under a HUGE pile of dirt and the smallest of cracks is miles away and setting our heart on it feels too exhausting, too difficult and too hard by ourselves. Either way, who you gonna call? No, not ghost-busters – Yup, God.
Let’s go to the ‘grave’ word. Grave, where our bodies are after we die, unless we are cremated, but you get my point. Grave. The grave. A grave. If we are asking God to take us from the grave we have dug for ourselves, we asking to be re-born. We are saying, let me leave this part of myself that got me here, here. Let me allow that which no longer works for me to stay here, let me leave that thought behind, that story, that pain, that victim hood – and LET ME RISE!
This takes surrender. It takes lack of air, no more clinging, not another idea or action of resolution – it takes letting go. This act of faith may take a ritual, a simple prayer or group support, a guidance from another, a Sunday in Church – whatever it takes, find that, and do it.
Dig me out of this GOD! I made this, I created this, this way, this sorrow, this pain, this addiction, this story – and I WANT OUT! Thank you God! Thank you Jesus! Amen!
shared with enormous love,