I have written and spoken about this teaching numerous times – and yesterday it came up in a group healing event – so, the request for more information is being answered here. I have no doubt, because these stages are universal that psychologically and other, they are understood in different language – this understanding I write from is spoken from an energetic and spiritual perspective.

Along our road to awakening, (also known as enlightenment, ascension, the longest 18 inches from your head to your heart, wholeness, Oneness, Christ alignment) we each will experience these four levels of being; as a whole as well as, about individual concepts. Until one reaches the AS stage, this teaching falls on individual understandings, not the whole.

TO: is the victim stage of being. Life is done TO us, all happens outside of us, nothing is our fault, there is no comprehension of responsibility, we have no voice, no say, not one iota of the concept of empowerment. The language of them, to me, not my fault, I don’t know – is common ground at this level of perception of the world. As an adult we are still blaming our parents, as a person one is afraid of or vocally against authority figures. Think early religion, fear, ancient times. Ruled by emotions.

BY: At this stage one is beginning to open to the dark side of EGO, and yet it is still energetically healthier than the previous level of TO, for one has shifted from outside ones self to the interior mode. The BY stage is the where the individual believes THEY are fully & ONLY responsible for what they accomplished. I did this, I did that, I, I, I. This is all about ego.mind, without any concepts of Higher Power, being part of the whole, connection. This stage can be extremely defiant, in not wanting any outside support, not looking at any other ways, perceptions or opportunities, listening to ideas, recognition of innate relating/relationship, etc.  Everything is personal.

THROUGH: God is working THROUGH me. Prayer begins to enter, the idea of connection, I can do this FOR you. On the spiritual path, many stay in this space for lifetimes. This is the time one takes workshops, classes, schooling, and their book shelves are over-flowing. The ego can be very full of itself as one still sees them-self as separate, as fully human, as an individual. Reacting emotionally is less. We begin to practice CHOICE. Unconditional love is brought into the mind set.  Taking other peoples speech personally is less & less. 

AS: At this time, we are in full recognition that we were created of God energy, made in Its image and likeness, we are awake to our innate Divine connection as One – no matter any human characteristics. The ego has died, it is no longer resonate. Fear does not exist here. All stories have been healed. Divine Consciousness is Sourced. No longer is there a frequency of you & I; there is only God. At this point of understanding we are embodying all we have desired of Love. To embody is to MERGE in Oneness. Any perceptions of personal no longer exist. One is no longer responsible for anyone else’s emotions, reactions or choices. One knows another as they know Self.   One loves all. Grace is the flow. At this stage, when one is still in human form;joy is the way, faith is the nurturer, love is the only answer. One has experienced that Love is what allows, welcomes, creates space for God to be Present. One knows beyond a breath of doubt that surrender of the idea of I is the answer to life. 

Yes, so much more can be discussed, yet this, when contemplated, may be just enough.

Shared with love, Deborah

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a mothers day commentary

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A Facebook friend sent this to my personal page yesterday – and I deeply appreciate it. I know I am a day short for this commentary, but i was simply too filled up yesterday to write. There is a facet of me which takes offense to commercialized hallmark holidays, yet due to societies ingrained expectations, I too wait for my child’s phone call and/or Mothers Day recognition. My dislike of commercial holidays due to pretense, obligations and fake recognition’s – not to mention the living pain of strained relationships in each mirror of the successful, happy healthy ones – well, it can be overwhelming. I am a believer – make each day the best, remember loved ones each day, treat one another with divine recognition each day, recognize love each day, forgive each day. Hallmark or a calendar should not be ones (only) compass.

Yesterday I had continual heart-whiffs of folks who have strained, painful, sad, burdened relationships as a mother and/or as a child. My empathy radar goes on high gear, when FB, as a mirror of society is gleaming with positive holiday comments, nursing homes are over run with once a year visitors and restaurants are filled with reservations in order to wipe away guilt.  

We cannot ignore all of it. It is all part of the mix of human relationship. The mother / child who has a long term loving, healthy, respectful, sustained love through the ages, a caring relationship – as well as the adult child who was abused by their mother, still struggling to find a nurtured heart in the midst of such devastation. 

Personally, I do know that we are able to overcome, or rather move through, grow, forgive, and even appreciate the childhood we had with a mother who was less than Hallmark perfect.  A great facet of forgiving another is not agreeing or approving with their treatment, but to allow space for their humanness, off the podium & expectations they are ‘in title’ associated with; even mother. I know that from the outside it is easy to see my own parents imperfections, faults, etc. – yet each experience of being their daughter has made me who I am today – and for that I am deeply grateful. I like me. It really has been that simplified for me. In liking me I no longer harbor the space to carry the wounds of what one may call a dysfunctional upbringing. I only carry gratitude. My mothers lack perfection mothering skills taught me at a very young age that seeking outside validation in alcohol, prescription drugs or money was not an answer. Her own lack of self worth directed me to go within. Her own wounds were a selfless service to my empowerment and spiritual life. How much I am grateful, how much I am thankful, how deeply I love her now, is beyond measure.

Yesterday I felt my heart recognizing clients and even peers I know who were physically abused by their mothers. The nurturer did not nurture, the carer did not care, the one who was to embrace, protect, and be one’s greatest cheerleader could barely get up each day – due to their own pain, their own upbringing, their own family cycle of wounds. This is a journey of  being forced to learn outside validation is passing – interior, self love, self approval, faith in a higher power is the only path to healing such cracks of pain. 

My heart hurts for the mothers who truly did the very best they were able, and children who fail to see them. My heart aches for mothers who do not have the relationship they yearn for with their children, for the human mixture has forged a different road. My heartaches for those who love conditionally – and allow predetermined expectations to set the path for ones most intimate relationships.

We EACH must do our own work, seek our own healing path in order to not repeat family wounds constructed of history and un-forgiveness. The path of FAITH helps us to find ways to heal our own hearts before we can love without exceptions, love unconditionally and allow room for another person, no matter their relationship to us, their humanness. 

Mothering comes in many forms – and can come from those who are not our biological parent. Being a mother has been and is my greatest love in human form. As a woman, the love I feel for my son, an only child, is beyond humanness – it is the gift to be ones greatest cheerleader, to see his spark before he could share it with the world, to always know his heart, to want so, so, so very much good, joy & all that life has to offer for another human being it can make me burst with effort! I know I am blessed to be his mother, each day I express gratitude for being able to feel this depth of love and soul connection with another being. I also have been given the gift of mothering others, of guiding in a motherly fashion, of filling a void – and I know it is not the same, yet I also know from my own experience, it is deeply appreciated. 

Whatever your mothering story, may you each day find ways to celebrate & feel good about who YOU are in this life……and to allow forgiveness, integrity and unconditional love to be your compass. 

I send you love, Deborah

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My 6’4″, 39 year old son @ the age of two! 


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1973 – Below, me reading my son his first book, home from hospital.

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Co-Worker for GOD


As I was with clients yesterday I heard Jesus say to me: “Some saw me on the road to Damascus….and some did not.” 

As a healer, counselor, minister – it does weigh on my heart when I cannot find the connector for others to hear me, to feel the hands of healing on their bodies, to know in faith that God is here for them!  Sometimes I think of the one liner, “you can lead a horse to water but you can’t make them drink.” Then, I often have heard commercially famous teachers expound on how not everyone is going to “get it”….and this past week I was at an Abraham-Hicks workshop when Esther/Abraham spoke of not everyone hearing, or getting it..(not exact words, but essence of). This thinking fires me up. 

I realize people have resistance – and I believe in and teach CHOICE……..BUT, I also believe that Gods POWER & PRESENCE is the ALL and that when the energy is pure, clear and present – no amount of resistance can battle it, all unlike it falls away in ITS Presence. I absolutely know the power & presence of God energy will heal anything. This may be through prayer, a healer, a moment when one hears just the right words for them to have the experience of all resistance, like a brick wall, crumble! 

Resistance is energy of ego/mind, staid and firm in its frequency of NO, I will NOT surrender! AND when one is fully aligned with pure unconditional love, in deep faith that all is possible with God – it has no power.

When I was a little girl I could not get enough of faith healers on the television. Should have been a clear sign, indeed, of my future journey ! 

We each have all these thoughts, which become ideas and beliefs which prevent us from surrender. It is our choice to believe them. It is our choice to be co workers for God, or not. For whatever reason, God needs us here – and the universe appears to be designed in such a way that unless we take up the sword to be an active co-worker of Gods, resistance remains.

We need each other, and we each need to surrender and know God, the ultimate power & presence of life. What does it look like to be a coworker for and of God? We are united in our faith in the higher power of creation. For me, it means no matter what anyone tells me about their story/resistance, I hold fast that God is at hand…and has the upper hand! This means to me, that I hold the vibration, the frequency of knowing God is healing you……even if my human mind cannot see it right now. It means a client can tell me lie after lie against their True Identity – and I will listen with an open heart grounded in faith, that their word has no power here in THIS room, where we are, in that moment. It means I am determined to hold the purest vibration possible, in order for YOU to let go, and let God. 

Thank you for reading, I needed to put these thoughts to paper!

I send you love, Deborah

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Change takes place with in your thinking first, then the idea bubbles into your mind and eventually after hours and effort of talking it, it will settle into your cells and you become the embodiment of the story.

One word can change your story. AND one word can change the story you see and share about others. Changing the wording applies tolerance, love & hope. Changing the wording shifts the entire energy of how you see, and perhaps how others are seen. The wording will shift how YOU FEEL about the person and or your self.

My uncle is a drunk.  –  (And yet, he has been clean and sober for 25 years and you are still telling that story. )

My uncle is a dry & sober alcoholic. He worked hard and has done well.


My wife left me. ( 20 years ago.)

My ex wife left me because she needed to search for her own happiness. I hope she found it.


My child struggles in school. 

My child has yet to find a place of being comfortable in school. I have faith they will. We stay informed with their teachers and support them to feel empowered and have confidence. It is not always a bad thing to be out of the box.



We cannot tell the story we DO NOT want and expect change. We keep the story alive and we give a story life by what we speak, pay attention to and engage with.

Choose consciously your words. Take the sacred pause and as my mother always said; ‘think before you speak’! Ask yourself, if I say that, what am I giving life to? 

I send you love, Deborah

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Hello Again………………a while since I shared here.  Many have had a wild ride, attempting balance on the energetic waves coming from galactic weather, solar storms, astrological happenings, ascension turbulence, Spiritual DNA, Light Bodies, crystalline frequencies…….many names, definitions, explanations… the nameless understanding of love vs. ego, faith vs. emptiness, internal vs. external, head to heart, human vs. spiritual.

Everyone’s ride looks different, IS different. Every individuals ride to get from where they are to where they want to go is unique. It is when we attempt to generalize it, compartmentalize it, compare it, that confusion and human ego lack thinking enters. From that, the clinging increases, the judgements explode and fear has its way with you.  

Human eyes are always looking outside, externally for answers. In that moment, one is ignoring their beyond valuable, innate, God-given, interior knowing of all that is. This moment of choice is crucial. This precious moment of choosing to seek OUTSIDE oneself for comfort, an answer, authority or other. THIS moment, THIS is the grand split energy and hence begins the rabbit hole ride, deeper and deeper senseless, repetitive and eternally vacant ego ride. 

Our consciousness has been being gradually raised since the beginning of time. (Or since enough of us fell down the rabbit hole and caused the great split!) Every generation has had great thinkers, lovers, those who go ahead of the mainstream middle. Yes, it does certainly feel there are many who are more awake to non physical existence than before – and many who are struggling to let go, unclench and believe in what they cannot yet see. 

And what is enduring is that the those who think outside the box, those who present original, new & not yet seen by the majority ways of seeing – eventually, perhaps generations down the evolution path, are validated. Eventually. (off the top of my head, Einstein, Curie, Plato, Gandhi, King, Yogananda, New Thought leaders….) 

If we simplify; what is the quest? Faith? Faith in what we cannot yet see? Gut? Believing in our guts, what we FEEL vs. what the majority sees? Or is it all to simply realize we are Creator energy in form and each one of us is formidable beyond our small mindedness and we are all on a path to realizing our innate GREATNESS! 

I do believe we are each creating by what we choose to engage with. Without doubt, this is  my way of being. KNOW your innate ability to choose and hence create. Self realization for sure! Whatever you engage with grows. Your interest, speech, seeing, noting, repeating, paying attention; all sacred fertilizer. 

And what about the ride? Do not go against the waves which are naturally created as you expand and change. Welcome the shifts. Unclench your hands. Remain faithful. 

In Light & Harmony-

Lovingly, Deborah

The Amethyst Light Ministry

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for my beloveds

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The collective ego appears to be screaming recently. I am also seeing it raising its venom head through clients/beloveds personal stories and experiences. I witness how ones heart can be in such pain as it points outs another persons wrong doing – it is amazing to watch the ‘bigness’ of ignorance. The vastness of the ego simply floors me sometimes, how the ego upon ego answer,  only creates more friction; yet without awareness of  Holy Spirit, without acknowledgment of the atonement, it is all one has to bring to the dance.  This is so not pretty.

I know for a fact, when I feel the ego on automatic reaction mode, finding fault in another persons way; I feel miserable. The truth is, we each do. It will tear us open, gut us like a fish, to see another person, especially someone we love, as ‘wrong”. When we can only find fault with the ways of a person we care about, our insides wrench, our heart aches and we loose sight of loving. It is a rabbit hole of insanity.  This horrible dance will feed upon you and upon you until there is nothing left of you but a totally misguided lie that you know what is best. …and you will crumble into little pieces because you are standing upon absolutely nothing. 

We do not know what is best for another person, but God does.

The way of seeing fault in another persons actions, choices or expressions is, as ACIM teaches us, because ego sees only ego. I am going to attempt to put this in every day language. – When you know yourself to be God in form, when you know you are Source energy, when you accept your Oneness with God; you accept anothers’ also. And thereby, you accept your Oneness with them also.

(ACIM: Atonement – the Holy Spirit’s plan of correction to undo the ego and heal the belief in separation; came into being after the separation, and will be completed when every separated Son has fulfilled his part in the Atonement by total forgiveness; its principle is that the separation never occurred.)

I have to first forgive myself for the times, moments and expressions when I have forgotten, failed to remember, been in ignorance of who I AM. When another person mistreats themselves, they mistreat another: in that moment they have forgotten who they are.

Love will forgive and remind them. Ego will berate and blame them. 

How do we remind another who they are? We invite Holy Spirit into our minds and hearts. We invite Holy Spirit to speak through us, as we internally forgive another persons outward actions of forgetting, of failing to remember they are ONE with God. We gently love them, reminding them who they are, how we see them as knowing what is right here, we encourage them to have faith to choose differently,  we know that somewhere within them, somewhere deeply buried beneath shame and lies is their Truth – for it is the same as each of ours; we are One. 

I continually remind myself that they too, whoever they are; knows. They know Love. They know Holy Spirit. They know God. They know…………they have simply forgotten…….and the only reason I have even seen this in them, noticed it; is because I forgot too.   

Shared with enormous love, Deborah

A Course in Miracles has taught me that if I want peace, forgiveness is necessary. Whenever I am not at peace, I know I have interpreted a situation wrongly and must forgive...this piece of advice creates so many miracles for me!


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Bill Moyers 1993 book, (and PBS special of the book) Healing & the Mind changed my life.  Before then, I had read and indulged in many metaphysical books; Shakti Gawain, 1978 ( I remember buying it fresh off the shelf!), Creative Visualization & the 1960 books by the Sleeping Prophet Edgar Cayce, & the countless brilliance of Louise Hay; the list is very long of the varied, diverse and lovingly shared information through many avenues.

In 1992 I opened my first healing center and office for hands on healing, and other non mainstream offerings for allowing the bodies emotional and spiritual balance to align ones life with their highest good, and express as such. Since that day, my path as a healer has been diverse, ( –   leading me to know absolutely no boundaries between our faith in the Creator and our ability to heal, manifest and deliberately create our lives.

This morning I awoke to a local man stating on our towns FB page a cry for help with his addiction to smoking. Seeking a hypnotist, he stated his years of smoking have caught up with him and is his reason for his heart issues. I immediately thought; no – not loving, heartbreak, lack of forgiveness is your reason for heart issues. But, I thought, perhaps I would offer him a session in order to introduce him to hands on healing and support his desire for help. I turned to his FB page to find out more and was blatantly hit with the most distasteful, angry and ugly FB topper I have ever encountered. It had horrible language in it, stating hate and *&^% towards others, as well as his photo stating the same, depleting, harmful, glaring anger. My bodies response was nausea.

On one hand, I do not understand why we are still having these conversations, why there are folks who do not see the connection between thought, mind, body and ones physical, emotional and spiritual health. On the other hand, I realize I am myself still stubbornly not ‘getting’ things – striving each day to refine my thinking.

I listen to Abraham-Hicks often. I am constantly amazed at the patience and repetition required to keep telling us the same thing over & over again. I amazed at how many times we have to hear the same truth before it seeps into our knowing, before it lands within us. One of my teachers in ministerial school once said, after 26 years at the pulpit; “it was time for me to retire, I kept saying the same thing over and over, every single Sunday.”

Our stubbornness is a testament to how we also are able to let go! Opposites, opposites, opposites; natures most DIVINE balance.

Repetition & patience goes a very long way. They are excellent tools. We begin with a vast emptiness, then can rise to hope, to believing, to knowing….and then; embodiment. Embodiment is the Beingness, our cells have changed, our spiritual DNA is alive, our awareness is awake with the literal vibration of pure Source energy.

So, the nausea I felt when I saw the FB header earlier has subsided. Now, my heart has regained its purpose; to reach out and see if this path would work for him. Or, do I consider the FB header a roadblock? If I do, am I letting fear be greater than God – which is impossible.

See, always tweaking the thinking process, always in practice mode, each one of us.

with love, Deborah


the practice of FAITH

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each morning when you awake, what is your first thought? this is how you are beginning this brand new day. do you like the thought? does it empower you? does the thought make you feel positive? does this very first thought which is crossing your mind upon your fresh awakening ….is it helpful?

first thoughts can vary, from old buried fears having risen to the surface to be brought into the light through your deliberate awareness and ability to shift your perception……..or they can be a thought of God, of faith in love & goodness….and all else in between.

is there an in between? is there a grey area when it comes to our faith? i think no, but, there is the ongoing process of fine tuning. if you are faithful of God, you are faithful – but we do get to perfect this faith at every turn. if you are over 55, think of the rabbit ears on your childhood tv set…attempting to get them in just the right position in order for a clear tv screen to be enjoyed without all the static. if you do not remember those, think of being in the middle of  no where with your cell phone, turning to the left, then the right, then down, then up, walking ten feet ahead, getting out of the car, standing on top of the car…..attempting to find a clear connection in order to hear a call without dropping it.

each day we are given a new chance to perfect our faith, to remove the static for greater clarity. i find, that the deeper i go with my faith, the more i depend on, call upon, expect from the Divine Creator, from the application of the Laws of God – i get these opportunities less and less, but when they do show, it stands out like a spare thumb!…. for more and more clarity. no, no, not testing. we are NOT being tested. we ARE being gifted more and more chances to apply what we say we know.

so, the other day when i was feeling quite full up with positive expectations, deliberate thoughts of abundance, and rather ecstatic joy of the season pouring through my outward below zero snowy presence –  i went to my car after doing errands at our local plaza and could not find my keys……..yes, one of those moments when i watched my self react. i ALWAYS have my keys on my wrist, always. i NEVER remove them – where did they go??????? i lost my keys???!!!

my higher self certainly enjoyed the show. it was not until a woman in the grocery store asked me if lost something simply based on my facial expressions and outward demeanor that i realized; stop deborah. ask.

in the parking lot, as i walked to my car to double check the seats i stopped, and intentionally asked all my angels and masters of misplaced items to show me where i left them; and voila, the thought, go to rite aid, on the counter appeared.

sometimes fine tuning our faith, that which we believe takes practice, no matter how practiced we are! being given these unexpecting moments to see where old habits still have momentum enough to appear is gift. we get another opportunity to give MORE momentum to our faith than whatever tid-bits of fear remain within our energy body.

each day upon awakening, when you first realize you are done slumbering, think a good thought. think a deliberate empowering thought. it can be as simple as, ‘today is going to be a really good day’.  or ‘today i welcome unexpected abundance.’ or good, or joy, or income, or happiness or grace and ease ……………..whatever your next good thought is, say it to yourself in the sleepiness of your morning mind, then as you sit on the edge of your bed, give a sacred pause moment and speak it out loud.

a beautiful way to begin yet another opportunity to walk your faith.

I love you. Bless your beautiful heart.

Rev. Deb

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2018 – The year of: STOP STOPPING YOURSELF.

The Amethyst Light Ministry is declaring the upcoming new year, the year of stop stopping yourself! During this in between week, (Christmas till New Years), we are claiming a new question each day, in preparing to be ready to claim ones greatness. 

Day 1: Are your ready to give up everything you think you know?  This is vital. It is vital for anyone to have the openness, the desire  –  to change. Our underlying resistance dwells in ones old alignment of rigidness, stubbornness and fear – that which creates or rather closes the streams of allowance within ones energy field. In holding onto to ones ways with clenched fists there are no open hands to hold new.  I realize, my questions and references feel big. Do you believe your body can heal? Do you believe that no matter what any mainstream specialist says to you – through your beliefs, through what you choose to engage in, what you think about, where you place your focus…which is energy – YOUR BODY CAN HEAL. There lies within your innate seed the Divine perfection of perfect balance – all things are possible. ALL.  

Day 2:  PASSION! Are ready to be passionate about being YOU!  What does this mean? Are you ready to love, adore and believe in yourself as much as what you have seeked outside yourself ? Are you ready to let go of needing anyone’s approval or authority? Are ready to be so grateful for what you know, what you live, what you have faith in…that no matter what anyone thinks, it will not affect you? Are you ready to live from your God Self, your highest self possible? Are you ready to be SO deeply fulfilled with knowing you are a speck of this incredibly power-filled universe and know that you are wisely, lovingly and thoughtfully deliberately creating your life experiences; that you allow nothing to stop you? 

There are a few more days and I look forward to what Spirit directs me to share!

Perhaps: Are you willing to keep your eyes on God? Are you willing to feel really, really good all the time? Are you willing to give Spirit all the credit? Are you willing to surrender? To open to more? Are you willing to meditate each day and awake to your True Identity? Are you willing to let go of right & wrong? Are you willing to know, feel and live as the power of the Universe moves through you!!?? Are you willing to stop being a victim? Are you willing to feel empowered of Spirit?

OR……..will you keep on stopping yourself?

More of this and comments can be found on the Amethyst Light FB page.

I love you…and look forward to fully stop stopping myself!!! and support you to do the same! 

Rev. Deb

Amethyst Light Ministry 

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Holi-day Greetings;
In  traditional Christianity, Advent  began 12/3. I love the idea of Advent, for it means to expect. It is a time of preparing for, hunkering down, getting centered, going within. It is the time we may plant a bulb and watch it grow roots and blossom in what is called the darkest time of year. 
I also love to challenge our thinking. Isn’t it interesting, this darkest time of year in the Northern hemisphere is when the sun is closest to the earth? 
Isn’t it interesting that the darkest time of the year is when we celebrate the Christ? Does that not make it the brightest? Does man call it the darkest, short days indeed, so the Light of Love and our remembrance of the Master Jesus is brighter and easier to see in our minds eye? (Yin and yang together make the whole!) ( I will also not get going here that Jesus was born in April and the Church changed the dates to take the power away from Pagan Traditions of Solstice……….)
As spiritual beings having this human experience, it certainly proves true to our minds to need the dark in order to appreciate the light.  As we grow spiritually and are more and more aware of Love as our True nature, we can appreciate Love without needing the darkness, we can stop needing the mud in order to grow and shine right where we are!
The weeks of Advent, ( always my favorite church time as a previous church minister), teaches us how Love grows, becomes, transpires in our own hearts. The stories attached to the Advent weeks, are really very lovely. We first have HOPE, actually the gift of Prophecy as the  wise folks know and go in search of. The second is of LOVE, for the birth of the physical star is seen. The third is JOY, to celebrate such a birth  and the fourth is the feeling PEACE. The final candle lit on the Eve of is  PURITY. 
Think of these as happening within yourself. You KNOW there is good for you. You FEEL it, and may pray or meditate to feel the palpable Presence of this. It is YOUR own gift of Prophecy which tells you so. Then, you dwell in the feeling of LOVE as you recognize this PRESENCE. You then, and rightly so; CELEBRATE with JOY this experience, manifestation, this dream which has become a reality in your life. Then, a sense of PEACE floods you in the knowledge that your are DIVINE and all you dream of can come into manifestation. You are now aware of the metaphysical Christ, the purity of stopping all distractions and remaining your heart on the eternal Source of all Life.
I leave you with this thought about Light and Dark, the mud and the growth. If, just if now, Jesus had NOT been crucified, would we have known him? Would his story, his life, be the relevant story of  many traditions? Would he even be known if he had NOT been crucified?  Is this historical story, ONLY known BECAUSE he was crucified, and IF SO, do we give thanks to those who took it upon themselves to do so? 
To teach others to be grateful for the mud in their lives, for all and every experience no matter what, for it has grown them into who they are today, then how can we possibly overlook the blessings of this  one?  It is in our ‘crossroad’ moments that we see what we truly are; Divine. 
I love you – thank you for sharing this with me & others. May the Blessings of the Light be yours, may your prayers be answered clearly, may your heart open to hope.
Rev Deb